My Life these days

I think my life had changed 360 degree since I don't stay in hostel anymore . I woke up in the morning and drive to college for my classes . My classmate also not same as before , sometimes I feel that I'm back to primary school . They don't seem like college students , it different  when I was in mrsm or foundation . They seem relax than my previous friend but things quite change than semester 1 . The lecturers seem strict than before . The subject quite need more attention than before . 

Now everyone think that now I'm living easy life . Yes , I'm agree but not fully agree . I don't have to struggle like others to get good grade , if I focus in my class and do exercise that enough . Not everyone struggle in the same way . I have my own struggles . I always think that I don't fit in the college . Everything is new to me , I don't have any acquaintance . I don't used to the way they talk , the way they learn , the way they joke . I can't talk , joke or learn like them . If my pointer is 3.7 , my mom will ask me why I don't get 4 flat because she said the subject is easy for you to score . 

My sister further her studies in Matrikulasi . If someone ask my mom where I study now , she will look at me and said Poli . Yes , I know my grade in spm is better than my sister and I'm study in a famous boarding school . These days , if anybody asking my secondary school , I just tell them a boarding school. I'm quite regret that I keep telling everyone what is my school is and my grade . Maybe I should tell them that my grade is not good enough that why I'm with them .

So guys , no matter what your grade in studies that don't decide which college you will graduate or what is your occupation .  My spirit keep go up and down .  I hope that I can keep my life on track . Good luck everyone ....